Previously on "Behind my back"...

You know what, whatever. There's nothing you can say now that's going to make me feel better. It hurts so much. I've never heard anything worse said about me like that, ever. That's the last time I'm ever going to share something with you and to the other one well just don't even read what I have to say. I'm never going to get a second chance anyways! That night when people were saying bullshit about you, I had your back and believed in what I said so when they realize their wrong they would have a second chance to see the girl I see. You thought that I actually didn't know anything about you, well you know your wrong on that! We talked on the phone about alot of things about ourselves and one of them was until 4 in the morning! The drama, the dislikes, your favorites, and mostly random things that made us laugh so hard. But if you want it that way then you can have it. I'll just pretend I don't know you just like you said..."He doesn't even know me!" Now I'm the one who's wrong and has to face the fact that everything I've said and done was nothing but a joke. I know you had a good laugh about it, so don't even bother trying to say otherwise. BTW how the hell do I think of myself as superior? Honestly...that's unbelievable! Out of all people...I never expected it to be you to say that! Looks like your the one that doesn't even know me! To the other one well thanks for trying to encourage me but I know and YOU most definitely know it was never going to happen, right? Nothing good is what I heard when you were talked about...just a pretty girl with a lot of haters on her back but I didn't let their thoughts of you make me think the same way. Man I went through a lot just to be friends with you. I just can't understand why, now! I TRUSTED YOU! Whatever this is just going to blow in 2 weeks anyways...for you two maybe...for me well ITS GOING TO TAKE MUCH LONGER THAN THAT! That's basically telling me our friendship was only worth that amount of time. Any friendship to me is worth a lifetime! Speaking of worth...I only mentioned that someone told me you weren't worth the wait cuz I know they can fuck off too and to me you were worth the wait! I never thought twice about if you were worth the wait. I can't fucking believe I lost my chance because of something like that. What other chance were you even talking about? I never even got one. So you know when people express how their words are left unspoken, yeah, I guess that's how mine will be for a long time. DAMMMN, how could I have been so blind not to see what was going on. Well, now I know what you guys want and how you guys are. Oh and don't worry I won't tell anyone cuz I'm the kind that would tell shit to everyone....I'm not going to say that what I have said before was a waste of time because it wasn't. I loved writing about you for just one simple reason because I liked you. If that and all the other things I've done didn't give you one single second of thought on what it would be like to feel same way then I don't know what ever will, at least I tried. Well now you don't have to try keeping this up and I hope you got what you wanted. When you care about someone so much, you just want what they want even if it means to not be together. Someone who's superior would never say something like that cuz their too selfish! WHY didn't you just tell me right from the start cuz this one is going to take a while for me to bare and let go='(