Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Just be supportive for once!

My dad has been a pain in the ass this week just because I didn't meet up to his expectation for math...Just one "B"ad mark and it's like the world has come to an end for him! One stupid mark and he thinks I'm not trying in my other subjects too?!?! like WTF! So, I told him yesterday that I got an 89 or 90% in my socials exam and then he asks me..."Are you satisfied with that mark?" in a not so proud way! Then he also says, "You know to get into UBC, you need an avg of 90% based from all your subjects!" and I couldn't stand how he was talking to me...every time he finishes talking to me I always think of my friend's parents that just support them for trying their best...Seriously some parents would die to give their child the marks I have and all my parents can say is..."Try harder next time" there's no "That's okay you'll do better next time" or "That's not bad...at least you did your best" not once in my life have I ever been told that...It made me feel like a failure but when I think about it...I sometimes think that it's them that's failing me...for not giving me that support especially when its not even bad! ITS ALWAYS BEEN ABOUT ACADEMICS AND STUPID PERCENTAGES! Always with the lectures about how hard it was in the Philippines of how they never had books and had it the hard way...Like yeah I feel bad and I'm sorry they had to go through that to give me a better life but if you want me to have a better life then I'd suggest you support me for as long as you live no matter how things turn out! I think one of the most hurtful I've ever heard in my life is when my dad was dropping me off at practice this week and before I got out of the car he said to me, "I don't care if your my child...if you don't help yourself then I will not support you and maybe throw your belongings outside the house!" AND he doesn't even say "You played well" or "Good game!" after one of my basketball games! Always criticizes me about how I played and compares me to someone who I should be playing like or tells me that I never improve and tells me how someone else on the team had improved...same goes for school! UGGGHH:@:@:@ some support huh? Like who says that their own child...I know your love to a child should be unconditional but it doesn't seem that way when it comes to me and my dad about school and academics...I love my dad and I know he says thins just to make me work harder but it doesn't and I just wish he'd be supportive for once...='(

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